This year I am making it a year of me - I am focusing on my health (physical, mental, emotional, spiritual) so that I can be a better person, wife, and eventually, a healthy mother. It is extremely important to me that I am a well mother for my children - not just phycially, but emotionally too. I want to give my future offspring the best I can of myself - and my husband too! He deserves the best I can be, since he is so great to me.
SO I have taken control of my diet - allowing myself a cheat day once a week (usually sabbath,a nd even then its not very bad), started daily devotions, this blog, a new medication, new supplements, and started exercising. No I don't believe there is any secret fix all for depression, but I am trying to find the combination that works for me. Things that I can do to help myself. Now all of them have come fairly easy, except the exercising. I haven't committed to doing it daily - almost daily, but not daily, and not for as long as I prolly should. Up to this point I have been working out at least 30 min 3-4 times a week. Now thats not too shabby, but I want to lose weight. And weight I am not losing exercising that amount. Today I had a chance to talk to a friend and mentor, and she started running a year ago. Now she is running a lot - training for a full marathon! She is such an inspiration! She also reminded me that an hour of exercise a day every day of the week is what we SHOULD be getting. OK, I thought, so here is another goal. An hour of exercise everyday - and some sunshine everyday! So I will be starting to blog about that as well. Or, at least blog about me trying it! To start that goal, I am going to the gym with a friend in a few minutes. It's after 8 pm in the evening, but better late than never! I really want to make this year of my life count - I really want to make changes that will contribute to a healthy life down the road. I love my parents - but I don't want their health habits to follow me through my life. No diabetes for me! It runs strong on both sides of the family. My sisiter and I both know that it is very possible for us to make enough slip ups to land right in the middle of diabetes - health habits play just as an important part as genetics for most of us. I want to make my life my own, and to be happy and healthy for the rest of my life. I want to be healthier than I have ever been - and I'll admit skinnier too :-) who wouldn't want to be! when the smallest I've been is a size 8, I think I have room to lose a few sizes currently (pushing into a solid 10 currently - and not happy about it at all!).
When I met with my current psychiatrist for the first time, he asked me, "If I was a genie and could grant you a wish right now, what would it be?" "to lose 20 pounds" I responded. I didn't even hesitate. I also didn't even think about wishing away my depression - or anything else! I think about my weight, my size, that often! It's horrible but true! I get so down when I can't wear clothes I want - less than half my current wardrobe fits right now. and that's depressing. So between my clothes, my family history, my current state, and my future wants and desires - and children - those are my motivators.
SO I have taken control of my diet - allowing myself a cheat day once a week (usually sabbath,a nd even then its not very bad), started daily devotions, this blog, a new medication, new supplements, and started exercising. No I don't believe there is any secret fix all for depression, but I am trying to find the combination that works for me. Things that I can do to help myself. Now all of them have come fairly easy, except the exercising. I haven't committed to doing it daily - almost daily, but not daily, and not for as long as I prolly should. Up to this point I have been working out at least 30 min 3-4 times a week. Now thats not too shabby, but I want to lose weight. And weight I am not losing exercising that amount. Today I had a chance to talk to a friend and mentor, and she started running a year ago. Now she is running a lot - training for a full marathon! She is such an inspiration! She also reminded me that an hour of exercise a day every day of the week is what we SHOULD be getting. OK, I thought, so here is another goal. An hour of exercise everyday - and some sunshine everyday! So I will be starting to blog about that as well. Or, at least blog about me trying it! To start that goal, I am going to the gym with a friend in a few minutes. It's after 8 pm in the evening, but better late than never! I really want to make this year of my life count - I really want to make changes that will contribute to a healthy life down the road. I love my parents - but I don't want their health habits to follow me through my life. No diabetes for me! It runs strong on both sides of the family. My sisiter and I both know that it is very possible for us to make enough slip ups to land right in the middle of diabetes - health habits play just as an important part as genetics for most of us. I want to make my life my own, and to be happy and healthy for the rest of my life. I want to be healthier than I have ever been - and I'll admit skinnier too :-) who wouldn't want to be! when the smallest I've been is a size 8, I think I have room to lose a few sizes currently (pushing into a solid 10 currently - and not happy about it at all!).
When I met with my current psychiatrist for the first time, he asked me, "If I was a genie and could grant you a wish right now, what would it be?" "to lose 20 pounds" I responded. I didn't even hesitate. I also didn't even think about wishing away my depression - or anything else! I think about my weight, my size, that often! It's horrible but true! I get so down when I can't wear clothes I want - less than half my current wardrobe fits right now. and that's depressing. So between my clothes, my family history, my current state, and my future wants and desires - and children - those are my motivators.
You are strong and beautiful! I know you when you set a goal for yourself nothing can stop you!
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